Senin, 22 November 2010

SATU HARI


Tahun-tahun terkasih....
Satu waktu dalam bab kehidupanku, aku bertemu seorang anak laki-laki.

Tidak tahu mengapa....aku sangat menyukainya.
Walau dia tidak pernah tahu apa yang kurasa.

Lalu suatu hari, aku mengetahui kalau dia naksir padaku.
Walau begitu....tidak satupun dari kami saling memberitahukan apa yang kami rasakan satu sama lain.

Karenanya...kisah ini kemudian berlalu hanya sebagai cerita cinta monyet.
Mungkin untuknya begitu....tapi tidak bagiku.
Kisahnya selalu tersimpan jelas dalam benakku.

Sampai suatu saat...kami bertemu kembali. Tidak secara harafiah.
Tapi kami saling bercerita....dan akhirnya satu sama lain tahu perasaan masing-masing.

Sayangnya sekarang ini adalah suatu "kejahatan" untuk mendeklarasikan perasaan itu.
Jadi kami menyimpannya saja dalam keheningan.

Minggu-minggu tersayang......
Kami sudah saling bertukar cerita hampir 1 bulan lamanya.
Tapi mau dibawa kemanakah kisah ini?
Apakah hanya aku yang berusaha bertahan pada sesuatu?
Sesuatu yang disebut masa lalu.......
Haruskah aku melepaskannya, Dear?

Hari-hari yang terkasih.......
Apabila aku dapat meminta 1 hari.
Hanya 1 hari........
Untuk dapat bertemu dengannya langsung.
Akan kuungkapkan apa yang kurasa.

Hanya untuk menghabiskan 1 hari bersamanya....seolah-olah hanya ada kami berdua..mengenang cerita-cerita lama.
Saat-saat ketika kami masih kecil....dengan kisah cinta kanak-kanak kami.

Lalu ketika waktu 1 hari itu sudah habis...
Kamu dapat membangunkan aku kembali ke realita.

Dimana dia masih tidak terlupakan,
Tapi lebih baik hanya untuk dikenang.

Aku berjanji tidak akan mengontaknya lagi.
..karena 1 hari itu adalah akhir dari percakapan kami.

Aku akan memulai bab yang baru.
BUKAN
Aku akan memulai buku yang baru.
Bagiannya telah berakhir.HARUS berakhir......
Tapi aku pasti akan merindukan 1 hari itu.................

Terima kasih tahun-tahun....minggu-minggu....dan hari-hari yang tersayang....
Karena telah mengizinkan aku merasakan perasaan yang berharga ini dari waktu-ke waktu :)

Minggu, 21 November 2010

Tulisan itu sejarah.....menulislah selagi kamu masih bernafas.

Karena ketika nafas itu berakhir....sejarah terus terukir :)

Jumat, 19 November 2010

One Day



Dear Years……

I met a boy once in a chapter of my life.

Do not know why I like him so much.

Even he never knew how I felt about him.

Then one day I knew that he had a crush on me.

Nevertheless, neither the two of us speak loud of what we felt.

Therefore, it has just become a monkey love story.

For him…but never for me.

It lingers clearly in my mind.


Until we meet again…..not literally.

But we talked….then we knew each other feelings.

Unfortunately, it is a crime to declare the feelings nowadays.

So we decide to call it private.


Dear weeks……

We already talked for almost a month.

But where will we take this conversation to?

Is it me that try to hold on to something…..

Something that called “past” ?

Should I let it go dear?


Dear days…….

If I can ask for a day

Just one day.

To see him face to face.

I will tell him what I felt.


Just to spend that one day with him….as if there are only us remembering the old days.

When we were young……….along with our young love.


Then when the 24 end…………………………………..

You can slap me back to reality.


Where he still unforgotten…………………

but best just to be remembered.


I’ll promise never to make contact

...because that one day is the end of our conversation.

I’ll start a new chapter……

NO…

I’ll start a new book.

His part is over. Have to be over.

I’ll be longing for that one day though...............




Thank you years…weeks…and days……

For letting me feel the precious feelings through times.

Kamis, 18 November 2010

Room 1502

Dear journal,

This morning I met the man that lives in room 1502.

It's been a while since the last time I saw him.
But today....

If I have the ability that close to Da Vinci to describe him in painting as what in my memory...

Then I will picture him :

Wearing maroon shirt with white T-shirt in it.
Creamy long pants.

With polite & neat look....
a little mustache hanging above his flimsy lips.


Looking at me.....
while I was shocked to saw him standing there.

Then I avoid him..try to hide among the crowd..............................
Don't know why.........................

Just not to see the man in room 1502.

That's all I can explain for this moment...........................................

Rabu, 17 November 2010

Wrong


Is it wrong to love again somebody that come from your past?

Can I order my clon to love both?

Or I’m too selfish to embrace both?

Senin, 15 November 2010

Let Go

Dear Darling,


Almost 3 years we have separated
Neither emails nor SMS came over.
Just to know each other, from others stories that we both fine in our own line.
But sometimes it’s just the wind telling good stories that makes us feels better in our sleeps.

I heard that you never feel as fine as it told.
Maybe you never really forget what happened between us two.
Is the memory still hanging somewhere in your head?
Is it true that the feelings never really went away from your heart?
Is it me that still linger in your mind?

Dear darling it’s just a matter of time.
It’s in the formula of love life story.
Never really like the Walt Disney kind of story.
We are not among those princes and princesses with happy ending story.

There’s a phase on growing up, including heartache from broken heart.
You’ll find your way to get cure from the pain.
Just let go and let it flow.

Maybe I’m such a pain in your ass.
But that makes you grow one inch more.
And yet I will be just a phase in your life, either it worth to remember or just to get over.
Let go darling and I hope you’ll feel better in the end.

With care and love
Sunset

(inspired by 500 days of summer)

Selasa, 09 November 2010

My Jacob

Dear My Jacob,

I have searching you for years......
But you seems to disappear and nowhere to be found.

Then...there you are...come out of nowhere...
Just when I found my bond with My Edward.

When you show up.....
You bring the old flower blush on my cheek.

I cannot pass a day without your image circling my brain.
Have I fall for you again when I'm already with the man I want to spend my life with?

If we have the chance...
To see each other face to face......
Just one day......can I be your Bella?
The "Bella" that lives with Jacob in our own world where there's nobody besides us both.
Just for a day......

Then I'll let you go......
Maybe with tears........
But for good.................
Because Bella belongs to Edward though.......

But you will always be My Jacob.....................
Forever.

Natal Panasonic 2025